and she walks along the edge

so

i have decided to throw away the cautious and all that is expected of me as a future student, a person lacking in funds and a devoted greenhouse worker,

and live dangerously.

i open myself to danger, scorn at expectations and take hold of lovely opportunities that should not be missed.

i, am going to equip Sirius with a camera bag, pack my own bags, book the time off work, get travel insurance, un-bury my shorts, my little dresses, my bathing suits, my flip-flops even, maybe paint my toes, find a floppy straw hat, a couple bags for treasures and my sunglasses and shall, as of next week Wednesday, descend into the warmth and beauty of Florida with dear Rachelle.

i am living spontaneously, quite extreme, really riding on that edge.

wooooo..

.

dee-dee-de-do-do.

we are soot-covered urchins; running wild and un-shod

Barb got me thinkin about tattoos today.

i'm not sure how exactly we got on the topic...but once my mind was reminded of tattoos...tattoos didn't leave my head for the rest of the day.
Barb has a tattoo. She has her husband's name tattooed on her back and she's planning on some little footprints (representing her dear children) in the near future.

i can't believe i forgot about tattoos. part of me really wants something like this:

actually my whole being wants it, most of the time. just a fuller version, with more color, located higher on my arm, more on my back.

have i mentioned i love ink?

because i do, i love it intensely.

and the moons layin' low in the sky

today dexter blew up.

well, not literally,
to be more precise:

today during a routine drive to work, dexter made a strange popping noise, and then proceeded to produce relentless and continuously multiplying cloud upon cloud of smoke. so thick that the cars behind him pulled into the next lane to avoid suffocation....

so basically, he blew up.

and after being carefully pulled over to the side of the road, hazards flashing (thanks to Jasmine).
the tow-truck was called.

and after being transported gently to our driveway, where he sat unconscious and in unresponsive for the day,
father found metal filings in his oil.

alas, it appears dexter's engine has succumbed to an untimely demise:
quite peacefully and without much warning,
the causes unknown and undiagnosed.

and my heart is breaking a little bit.

eventually me and the father will begin efforts to reconstruct the engine.
for the moment,
we are still suffering from shock.
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forcing everything metal to shine,
and the sidewalk holds diamonds, like a jewelery store case...
they argue, walk this way.
no walk this way

and laura's asleep in my bed
as i'm leaving she wakes up and says,
i dreamed you were carried away on the crest of a wave
baby don't go away
come here.

e.e cummings

since feeling is first
who pays any attention
to the syntax of things
will never wholly kiss you;

wholly to be a fool
while Spring is in the world

my blood approves,
and kisses are a better fate
than wisdom
lady i swear by all flowers. Don't cry
- the best gesture of my brain is less than
your eyelids' flutter which says

we are for each other; then
laugh, leaning back in my arms
for life's not a paragraph

And death i think is no parenthesis

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beauty to the top-most.

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i have a collage idea in mind, i'll work on it tomorrow perhaps. if it becomes anything lovely...i'll give you a peek.

let's give this another try....

lisa, proudly displaying our efforts.

lisa placing a tomato, concentrating intensely.

our, medium-ly late night snack:
naan bread, turkey, brie, tomatoes, avocado, and a dumping of freshly ground pepper, toasted to perfection

mah brownie. yum yum yum.

lisa's carrot muffin, a tad over exposed.

rachael and lisa, pretending perfectly to portray preposterously pro-puffer fish

the back's of their heads, (note the lovely exposure and blurred back-ground: the result of my large aperture)

lovely houses

sunnnn

my swell new blazer

here, you are babes.
i think they'll work this time.

*for those of you who tired to click on the links for the white elephant, needlework and mulberry street coffee house, go try click on them again.

i promise, they'll work this time.

i'll get you lost in the dark

this weekend is just rushing past.

yesterday lis and i, joined part way by rachael, set out to the downtown for a day of thrifting, coffee shops and all things vintage.

lis, also showed me how to use Sirius Canon Black a bit more properly and manually. so i photo documented some our adventures. (perhaps, occasionally, a bit too thoroughly) ;)

i took some real beauties, i have the incredible talent of capturing people at their best.
(don't worry lis, i'll keep em' for my private enjoyment)
:)

(see next blog post for pictures)

these are a few of the lovely places we went to:

(1) the bible's for misson thrift store. (i very much enjoy the lovely cheap prices, in comparison to value village. i picked up a swell little blazer and a meter of lace fabric, and lis found a couch...which we unfortunately had to leave behind)
(2) the white elephant. (this is a lovely little store, i must remember to come here when shopping for birthday/christmas/valentine gifts. Lis, send me a picture of that card? Aha)
to visit their website, click here

(3) needlework. (this is a little fabric/sewing store, that just opened up at 174 James Street North. it's a beauty). to view their website, click this. (click it, it changes color)

(4) the always lovely Mulberry Coffee house.
http://www.facebook.com/MulberryStreetCoffeehouse

both feet together..

so, the many brilliant revelations that have been hitting me throughout the workday have begun to slow.

about a week ago i realised this. i was beginning to spend my days brainstorming ways to spend the time of the short, short evenings when i returned home.

maybe my brain was just on brilliant revelation back-log from the months and years that i have had little free time to just think about things.

the thoughts still come, just a little slower, and perhaps with a little less enthusiasm to follow them through.

i'm trying to think of some of my thoughts from today.

today at work:

(1) i planned what outfit i would wear when i got home. (this, less then brilliant idea has been successfully accomplished, i sit here now in my old blue jeans, comfy black shirt, and warm cardigan)

(2) i decided how i would to my make-up for the night's adventures. (this, less then brilliant idea has not been completed, but probably will be quite soon)

(3) i decided i should write a blog-post, because it had been a while. (volia!)

(4) i mourned the regression of brilliant ideas.

and that's all i can remember.

oh wait!..

(5) i decided to take another break from Facebook (for those of you who did not know, i had re-activated Facebook, for absolutely legitimate, and non-dependency related purposes. it's true.)

anyways...

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for a quick update in the life of me:

i accepted my offer to Sheridan, for fabrics, and i am still SO excited. (well, at least when i remember to think about it i still feel quite excited inside)

i began to search for houses: one of which, Samantha v.-- a dear friend of mine, and fellow-future-Sheridan-fabric-er-- even sent an email to the landlord!

(so far it's looking somewhat unpromising but it was an exciting reminder of freedom and new things)

i'll post pictures of it sometimes, maybe, if things begin to look more promising.

(if i do find a house, there will always be a couch for all you fellow Sheridan-ers to crash on, in a desperate, or not so desperate moments need)

other then that, i haven't been doing too much, sleeping, eating a lot of food, and chocolate. (i stocked up Dexter with chocolate, and today, dear Barb at work offered me a Toblerone bar to add to it. )

i've been watching a lot of movies, sleeping a lot, missing my alarm a little too often...but you know, things are very much content.

OH, one last things for those of you out there who have extreme, un-satisfiable, dig-through-all-the-cupboards-for-that-one-last-dusty-chocolate-chip, i-don't-care-how-old-this-chocolate-bar-i-found-in-my-desk-is-chocolate cravings, waaaaay too often...(common', i know it's not just me)... i have the solution. all thanks and credit to ms. jasmine t. for introducing and enlightening my life with...

brownie in a mug:

in a mug (surprise! didn't see that one comin' did ya!)

mix together:

4 tablespoons sugar

4 tablespoons flour

2 tablespoons cocoa

2 tablespoons vegetable oil

2 tablespoons water

pinch salt

stir together, microwave for one minute.

eat.

yum.

Jasmine said, it'll be a few months before you crave chocolate again.

though....i had one last night, and could eat another one now.

ready for this?...

last night i dreamed that an individual, who will remain nameless, tattooed evil Disney characters across his chest in-order to win my affections.

after this occurrence, another individual, also who will remain nameless, serenaded me on guitar.

i am a little stuck about which one to choose...

we prayed, it'd never be fixed or be found.

hi

:)

where to start, where to begin, where to commence...

i guess proper introductions, should come first.

everyone, i'd like to introduce you to Sirius Canon Black:

...(he's the camera)

(handsome, is he not?)

Sirius is a T2i Canon Rebel, nothing to extreme, but still quite extreme for me. i think this was the most expensive purchase i have yet purchased in one place.

(thankkkk-yooouuu credit card)

Sirius entered the family on Saturday. sort of impulse, mostly not. on saturday morning, i emptied my rum bottle of carefully saved funds, bestowing me with a hefty 14o dollars. (that was actually a bit disappointing. i imagined there would be at least 250 dollars in there)...and after fighting to remove the last few bills from the bottle with a pencil, i decided not to wait any longer... researched cameras and headed to the store.

(goood-byeee pay-check)

i think, he and i shall be great friends.










next bit of information:
exciting information at that...

i got accepted to college!
cosmetics and textiles. the textiles was what i was really waiting for, i think i shall accept it most immediately.

then maybe....start apartment searching? i feel perhaps it may be too soon for that...but i am thoroughly excited.

anyways! i must run out to the library.
i might return later tonight, i have much to record. it has been a while.

in any case, have a most lovely night
dear ones.

but these words were never easier...

I can't spell February.

....Of course I can't spell a lot of things, but that's the newest real thing i've realised since February came around.

Febuary.

Is how my unconscious mind want to spell it.

Annnnyways.

I started piano lessons again tonight. I'm quite excited. Hopefully this third time is a charm, and I stick with it. Tonight I learned:

(1) that i have ridiculously bulgy veins on my hands

...i also learned a lot about posture, my scales, expression and un-needed tension. i've gotta loosen' up a bit.

i also love scales. i believe scales are supposed to be the horrid things that everyone hates to practice? i don't know, but i love them. they are so perfectly complete.

do, do, do, do, do, do, do, do.....

do, do, do, do, do, do, do, do........